The Unknown

Today is my second last day at JKR CPPT HQ JKR Maju Tower. Going back home to serve my hometown. Kinda excited about it, but at the same time soo nervous venturing into something so unfamiliar to me. it's not just about another job, (like what i had in the past couple of months). It's like another chapter of my life. Starting a new beginning. A fresh start. A clean slate. A career that i hope won't bore me. Good bye to construction & quantity surveying and hello to brighter and happier future of the unknown. Hopefully. Insya'Allah. :)

A Nightmare on Aidiladha

Last nite, i had a really weird & scary dream. more like a nightmare.. (scary dream=nightmare, right?) i was in my late granma house (my scary dreams always happen there. dunno why), with my family and relatives and 2 strangers who look like they were husband and wife. n i started to see bayang2 itam from nowhere. whats weird was i was the only one who cud see them. they all made fun of me, ckp i was halucinating. but after that, things turned chaotic. ada pasu pecah, air kuor dr dinding, n i kept seeing the bayang2 hitam ive mentioned earlier. n hantu ni degil sebenornye. mcm kalo kite lawan, die akan lawan blk, for instance, bila pasu pecah, n kiteorg mcm marah, die akan wat pecah lg (told u it was weird..). then, i saw my late uncle 'ayah ngah' at the balcony@lambo (bahasa trg). he was shirtless and only wore kain pelikat. then i told my dad that ive seen ayah ngah. but this time everyone cud see him n were really shocked. when he noticed that everyone was looking at him, he grinned (a scary one!). suddenly he grabbed my hand n started dragging me away. i fought back. he eventually gave up n decided to grab the 2 strangers. the strangers seemed willing to go with him and then they just dissapeared into thin air. later that night, we all decided to sleep in the living room of my late granma house. i slept beside my mom. siap baca ayat kursi b4 tdo.. then suddenly hantu tu masuk ke badan my mom n started to grab me real tight. i fought really hard. dh bace mcm2 tp still xjd mende. n then i woke up. xsedo kul brape time tu. hmm.. ni mesti x basuh kaki b4 tdo ni.. mainan tdo la tu. or maybe ayah ngah came to visit us last night, mlm raya haji. i dunno. but pp, my sis, told me that she heard something weird last nite, around 3am. dgr mcm ada org gali blakang umah guna cangkul or 'chok' seperti kate org2 trg.. n i started to sing 'gali gali gali gali gali lobang..lobang digali menggali lobang untuk menutup lobang~' by salleh yaacob.. hahahaha.. but seriously, it was scary.
oh b4 i forget, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!!

musim hujan

its december, and yes, its raining season again. i kinda love the season becos its always chilly, dont hv to turn on ur aircond/fan. but i still turn on my fan not bcos its not cool enough, but to dry my laundry..hehe..jemur kat luor wat makin basah ade aa.. but it's always hard for me to wake up early (i'm sooo not a morning person) cos its always dark outside, and the bed always looks inviting.. arrghh..thats my biggest challenge in the morning. after hitting the snooze button a few times, ( a few ke?) baru la kuatkan semangat utk bgun n mandi. going downstairs, everyone is still sleeping (since its school break and my mom is a teacher)..feel like going back upstairs to sambung my tido..behnyeee...

but anyway, aside from me finding it hard to wake up early, Trg is also hit by a huge flood this year. Kelantan too. and it is huge..malas nk explain kat sini, so jika ingin mengetahui dgn lebih lanjut, sila rujuk blog miss Farah Diana ye..lebih kurang gitu la. n i was there in the car actually. tumpang his dad cos my beloved jazz couldn't possibly pass the banjir yg paras peha according to this mat indon yg kebetulan baru je mengharunginye dr tapak pembinaan istana chendering (probably) to maybe kedai ku****t seperti kata cik Fawa sendiri.hahaha

Fuh lege...

i had my PTN interview earlier today..tunggu sorg2 masuk setgh jam ade, 40minit pn ada..first2 xrase berdebo lg, tp time turn seorg b4 tu, mmg debo sgt2!..byk ngat soalan yg disoalnya..nasib baik bleh jawab walaupun sgt tergagap2..tp ade 1 question yg surrender awal2.."berapakah keluasan negeri Trg?" mmg xtau la hok tu.nk bajet pn mmg xtau tale (kate ateyam)...ade gk die mntk wat ucapan perasmian sambutan hari guru thn 2008 di SK. Chendering..bayangkan D.O. K Trg xleh dtg, so A.D.O. la yg kene rasmi..wow..really wasnt expecting that one!was really nervous at that time...berpeluh2 dalam kot yg dipinjam drp Pn. Rusniyatun (xtau la busuk ke x tu).. 'baharambang' je aa..n soalan english pn ade..kne imagine gi US,(love that part) n org putih tanya, "whats so special about M'sia?" yg ni bleh la goreng2 garing2 sket..tp byk promote trg je..negeri lain kurang. sbb mmg bace ttg trg je. mane tau die nk tanye psl M'sia plk..psl jalur gemilang ade, politik ade, parlimen, dun, agong, pemangku sultan..dam byk lagi yg ade kene mngene ngan trg ni...sgt la byk soalannye! xtau la leh ke x jawatan ni.. mcm xleh je..x confident la.. cos i dont think im a people person.im too shy

torn

I'm having a really big interview this Sunday. untuk post Pegawai Tadbir Negeri Gred N41. this post is like really big in Trg. yesterday, my dad asked me "bace x lg utk interview tu?". n i just smiled sheepishly cos i havent read a damn thing! then he started quzzing me. n i couldnt answer a single question! some of his questions are:
- ape panggilan official Agong?Sultan?
- Trg ade brape parlimen?DUN?
- sape ex-officio Trg? (kemarin br tau what ex-officio means)
- DUN mane yg PAS? mane yg BN?

haha..i know those questions r very basic n every org trg shud know la. but u kno la..as they say 'ignorance is bliss' - im happy not knowing all of those boring stuff..
i still am not ready for the intervw! x amik lg gambo passport (pdhl lame dh anto cuci nye) x bace sepatoh habuk pn lagi, resume pn x update lg!..waaaaaaa stresssss.
but i think what contributes most to my 'kemalasan untuk study' is that im torn between 2 future careers. ok let me list them down..

1. PTN aka TCS (Terengganu Civil Service)
pros:
- leh duk trg, pndah antara daerah je
- leh quarters beso kat batu buruk. (yay love the place)..but not immediately la
- cepat naik pangkat compared to qs
- be the boss instantly!
cons:
- xleh duk putrajaya (love the place too)
- takut raez (my fiance) leh posting kat lain, xleh ikut plok
- gaji starting rendah compared to qs.

2. QS at JKR
pros:
- hv the chance to duduk putrajaya (tp xtau bleh ke x n xtau bile)
- leh ikut raez in case die xleh posting kat trg.

- gaji starting lg tinggi dr PTN (around rm400 gk lg tinggi)
cons:
- xtentu lg dpt posting katne (tkut dpt bndr kl..too bz la)
- kuarters xbest lgsung..(yg kat trg ni la)
- post kontrak lg (eventhough kwn2 said guaranteed akan dpt permanent, n gaji mcm yg permanent)
- susah nk naik pangkat..lame2 keje pn still xnaik pangkat

but, its hard to just let go of the TCS post..mostly becos ive worked my a** off to be there. first, i had to take the exam..siap ponteng keje, g muzium utk baca psl sejarah trg..xleh pnjam buku.fotostat pn xleh..even my former boss called me a few times, ignore je..hehe sorry boss! after lulus exam tu, i had to go to a freakin' kursus! its called 'Terengganu Assessment Centre' in INTAN Kemaman for 3 days! kene ponteng keje lg..but at least time tu dh kat JKR, so diexcusekan sbb urusan kerajaan kununnye. n it was HARDDDD...ade 10 activities, termasuk public speaking (BM n English), uji mnda (BM n English too), debat parlimen, n also a 2.4 km run!wow..that was reallt tough. but, guess wat?i was the top 20 of all the girls!..letih nk mapuh tp still bangga..brought out the athlete in me.haha..ask my frens, they'd know how lembik i am! lari sokmo last skali except that one time where i beat Nurin!(my biggest achievement in sport, still gloating bout it). n now, for the final step..i cant just give up here, can i?so perjuangan perlu diteruskan!

as a conclusion, im being tooo choosy, rite? either one is great for me..just wait n see je la. besides, yg TCS ni pun bknnye confirm lg dpt..confident je lebih..hehe
Wish me A LOT OF LUCK n DOAKANKU BERJAYAAAAA!!

1st Post - nothing new

I've tried blogging before. with the purpose of nk keep in touch with my fren, Nurin who was studying at Sheffield Univ (kononnye). back then. and now that she's back home, got married and live a bz life working at Citibank, i don't see the purpose of keeping that blog anyway (btw, it was not really extravagant, just publishing 3 posts, which was BIG to me). and now i found out that some of my frens started blogging, and i want to do that again too. the rush of writing something private of yourself, but letting the world to read it, is really a confident-booster for me (imagine the wind blowing ur hair while everyone was gawking at how confident u are (haha)). but the prob is, what wud i write about?im not a gud writer (at all). i even got B in UPSR for penulisan! (but i like to think that my scrawny handwriting got me that f#@%^&g B). so there is my first post, talking bout my UPSR result which i took like gazzilllion years ago!